Smooth Sailing

 Daddy says “the do gooders are the problem, they want to give every thing away  and  its the survival of the fittest, Fuck the rest of you if you can’t make it on your own accord” like he did. 

Momma says “stay out of harms way, do unto others”. 

That’s 80 plus years of advice from living in the money culture. Their offspring says “save everyone and help everyone help everyone, make the world sustain all life no matter the differences”. 

It’s very tedious walking the tightrope thru these two trains of thought. It’s like a chess game of will, politeness and respect for your elders trying to converse with them. Every conversation makes you think before your speak, not to state your point of view but not to offend with harsh truth, keeping a balance between them yet making your own progress without getting them upset. The balance is exhaustingly tiresome and constant. 

Trying to get others to see where they’ve been had is difficult and dangerous. You never know what will tip the scales in or out of favor for you from them.  Pick your battles, like choosing a song on the juke box, some you know so well its not worth hearing again, others are so new its a challenge to see how long they’ll listen.  

Mental musical chairs, they’ve got their favorites and you yours but if the melody is altered too far off its useless to continue. That’s the mindset the culture has constructed for all. Each new generation wants their own background music for its their safety net and security blanket. Trying to change the tune is like trying to get someone to walk the high wire without a safety net, they don’t have the same perspective as you, you’re telling them its only 2 feet off the ground, but they see 200 feet off the ground. 

It’s all not pulling teeth or pins and needles, but its like a blind man traversing a mine field with someone else giving directions, trust. They trust what got them there and your blind luck is trying to say “yes, but I never needed those directions, bc I got this far without it, bc of your success”.  My success from the blind luck opportunity was sustained by using their methods of adhering to staying focused, but along the way with so much free time was able to observe that it only works in that culture. 

I am trying to show them that culture isn’t the only one available and another one is possible which doesn’t need all the obstacles and pitfalls they had to avoid and overcome.  A plus to them for their success and guidance. Another culture may not apply to them, I understand they won’t be living in it for long, but not supporting me for trying to make the path smoother for the next generation is baffling to me. 

If its not gonna benefit them they want no part, nor give any encouragement to their own child in his attempt to help others, they’re only concerned with making their own child survive best they know how. I guess what I am saying is that their child sees that their culture has hit the fan and I am trying to alter that course so their grand children dont run aground from adhering to the same culture that shipwrecked itself.  

As always I am in the crows nest trying to point out the shallows and pointy rocks. This is what they have allowed me to be and do. They said “go up there and check out the weather and look for land and tell us the safest course”. Well here I am telling them and they don’t believe me. 

I am telling them that the course they’re on is the problem. It must be astonishing and a shock to them to hear it, they’re trying to process it and cant believe their ears, like they had no idea or an inkling of suspecting that the course they’re on is the problem, because it’s worked so fine up till now. 

Are they asking themselves how could we be so successful for 65 years on the wrong course.  Improbable yes, impossible no. We’ve all been lead down the primrose path only to find its a dead end because those piloting the ship change the course to only suit their greed.